serving the nations for 17 years
unlike any other!
Retirement Announcement - June 2014
God has been encountering me since I was a small child…visions; dreams, trances, healings and angelic visitation was the norm. But, in 2010 God encountered me in such a way that made the first 29 years of encounter pale in comparison…it was as if I had just met God! Maybe encounter isn’t the right word. Habitation…now that’s the right word! What I didn’t realize was that this lifestyle of radical habitation, intoxicating love and mystic union would cost me everything! The church I was pastoring was divided; all but about ten devoted disciples left in anger. My family had to sell everything, we sold clothes, dishes, furniture; I had to watch my kids sell their toys. And I did it all with great joy and a high that left me all but useless to the world around me. Our friends turned their back on us as local pastors took it upon themselves to slander me in a well-meaning attempt to destroy what they thought was a work of the devil! This awakening to God’s indwelling presence left us with nothing and yet we had everything! The crowds of people that once came to hear me speak and receive their healing were now but a mere few. The passionate messages I eloquently spoke were now nothing more than the gibberish of a drunken fool. This would be the end of my ministry as I had known it!
It has now been four years of learning how to hold the wine of His great love, of discovering what life and ministry look like from a Heavenly perspective. And now hear I am at a place that lacks definition, a place that seems to neither be an end or a beginning. In this place of eternal bliss is something so much greater than crowds and popularity; of much more value than gold and silver…this is LOVE!
I have lost all desire for the platform that breeds popularity; for the self-promotion and hype others call the anointing! To be honest, when I look at what ministry has become, I am sickened! In 2010 I retired…I stopped working to get close to God, and recognized that we are one…I stopped striving to please Him and realized He is pleased with me…I stopped studying to know Him and began intimately enjoying Him…I stopped trying to be righteous and instead rested in the reality that Christ is my righteousness! I stopped trying to equip the Body of Christ and began awakening them to what they already possessed!
I am now entering what feels like my second retirement! All I can say is…I’M DONE! I want nothing to do with what ministry has become! I can no longer stomach the hype, the self-promotion, the pride and arrogance!
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